What’s going on with me, personally?
This is a multi-purpose blog. I want to share recipes, sewing, gifts, organization, and all the things that I love. It is however, a personal blog – which means I get to use it to get things out in the open sometimes and to air out my thoughts and feelings.
That’s what this is. So if you’re only interested in pretty things and tutorials, there’s no use in reading on (and I promise I won’t be offended!), but if you’re interested in a little bit of how my mind works and what’s going on with me, here’s a little slice of me.
My mother is sick. She has had cancer for years and has been such a fighter. What started as beast cancer has spread to multiple organs in her body. She’s still fighting, but years of chemo and medications are taking their toll on her. She has been in the hospital for a few months now battling blood infections. This has been hard on my whole family.
Seeing what my mother is going through has provoked me to examining my spiritual life and my beliefs. I began doing this Blog Bible Study and am currently on Chapter 9. I don’t remember the last time I did a bible study. I’m sure I did as an active member of my youth group growing up, but I couldn’t tell you anything about it.
Thus far, we have covered three major life focuses, and I have been working on each of them.
The first is God. I have started reading my bible every evening, and getting up early each morning to spend some time in prayer. This was rough at first, but I’m getting better at it and really do see a difference in my days. I pray so much more now than I ever have.
The second is my husband. I have been focusing on being biblically submissive to my husband. I try to help him, not to quarrel with him, and in general to be the wife God calls me to be. I have also started praying for my husband on a daily basis.
The third focus (which we are just now starting) is my son. This week I am trying to model my Christian life for him. I hadn’t thought about it before this study, but I realized that I do all of my praying, reading, etc while he is asleep. This is so stinking convenient! But it’s not really modeling anything for him. So this week I am starting a prayer time with the little man before bed. It’s nothing super long or anything, but I want talking to God to be a part of his daily life.
There’s some changes that have happened as a result of my studies. They were unintentional but I’m super happy about them. Apparently, when I stop focusing on myself and being selfish I start to do more around the house. I clean, I do the laundry/dishes, I water the yard, and I still have time to relax. Its like if I’m not moping, it takes way less time, so then I still have time to do the things I want. It’s crazy how that works!
So that’s all I want to say right now. I just re-read this and I’m not sure what the purpose of this post is. Maybe I wanted to share? Maybe I wanted to get somethings off of my chest? Maybe I’m just that bored (lol)? But if you read this far, kudos to you! And there’s a quick update on me!